.Wednesday, December 10, 2008 ' 2:42 AM Y
pon&zi was just all around...
Is it time?
Sometimes I will question myself over the things that I have done in my life that makes me regret. During these times, different emotions start to take over, controlling my life, my heart and mind. Sometimes, sorrow, and worst of all, anger.
*hais
It is damn difficult to keep on acting. I know I dun feel well inside, yet I still have to pretend to look fine on the outside. I force myself to smile, laugh, and share the joy with others. Yet, no one really understands how I feel deep in my heart. Confusion, is another factor that messes up my mind. I cant make up my f***ing mind. Cant do anything right. Sometimes, I just hope for someone to share these woes with, someone who can care for me, someone who is willing to listen to me. (:
*hais
When it comes to making these decision, I just hope and pray for just 5 mins. 5 mins will do. Of peace. Just to calm myself and allow me to make my decision. Letting go may be hard, but holding on will hurt me more. Sometimes, I really hope that I can just cover one eye and let it all go, forget about all those unhappy stuff, forget about the burdens, the troubles and problems. But thinking back on it, how?
I tried. Yet, failed.
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